What now?

So, I'll be honest with you. I don't know. Have you ever heard the song, "Breaking up is hard to do"? Of course you have, it's a classic. Never before have I realized just how true that is. It is so hard to tell someone that you love that you can't be with him anymore. I know that the world would say, "If you love him, then why can't you be with him? Love can bring you through anything!" The only problem there is that love can't be one-sided. It has to be mutual and equal. And when it isn't and when the one you love isn't willing to listen or to meet you in the middle, it falls apart. And you have to protect yourself.
It's odd though, even with the sense of loss that I'm experiencing, there is a sense of relief. I know I did the right thing. And we were able to leave it with the possibility of maybe picking back up after we've both matured a bit. But that's just a possibility. And even though I know that, I'm still okay. I am content to be me without him. Of course I miss him, he was my first love. But I know that if we are supposed to be together, then nothing will stop God's plan. I also know that if we aren't supposed to be together, then God has something unbelievably better for both of us, and I for one can't wait to find out what it is.
So what now? I know that I need to seek the Lord with all that I am. And I am excited to do that. More excited than I've been in a while. I guess that's my answer. :-)